WHY. January 18, 2008

Why must you give me false hope?
Why is it that everytime when i ask if you’re lying you say you’re not, but you are.
Why do you have to LIE to me, to make me have the heart attack, then say “Joking”?
Why do you have to lie once, then again, then even more?
Why can’t you just at least lie once, then say “Joking”?
Why must you make me believe you and fall in your stupid trap?
Why must you make my heart pump wildly, then let it stop dead?
It’s like running and running, and you’re already the first, then you trip, and fall, and everyone runs past you.
You don’t know that feeling, do you?

Weiyu and i went to the popular bookstore today to get a valentine’s day gift for her bf. *cough* (: and in the end, we end up laughing like hell ‘cos of the girl that looks like pearlyn. and we were calling her and when she did turn around, we realise that she was someone else! but it was sooo similiar! [: then later i was telling her how she holds soft toys. Winnie the pooh & friends, to be exact. She actually pinches their noses and takes them out! GOD, when i told her, she was like laughing and i was laughing and we laughed for 1/2 hour. then our tummys hurts and we can’t even eat lunch. ;DD but it was funn. And she end up not buying anything. I showed her the way she holds all the other soft toys and laughed at the same time. people walk past and look at us but we don’t give a damn, ‘cos we’re having funn! and she kept on asking me to stop it while laughing. ohohoh. i have an angel! (: weiyu has too. hers is hidden mickey. mine is “delcine”. weiyu’s a really super nice person. ;D

and. it’s not that i regretted about transferring, it’s just that i couldn’t forget.

Mr Right + Ms Right = Mr and Mrs Wrong. ;D

What’s the feeling of acting, and pretending and lying to that person?
What’s the feeling of stringing someone along?
What’s the feeling of playing on the inside, but acting on the outside?
What’s the feeling of hatred inside, but you’re actually putting on a smile and love?
What’s the feeling of replying something you don’t even mean, and don’t even care?
What’s the feeling of someone being so nice to you, but in your mind it’s only about shaking her off?

You don’t know.

Oh! I’m going back to NY on the 6th. anyone coming? (: Weiyu and a few others going. And later, i’m going to meet her bf. And she was actually COUNTING THE DAYS she was going to spend until she sees him. It’s weird, k… She suddenly asked me this question:

Do you know the meaning of true love already? Have you ever felt it before?

Well, have you?

A simple yes or no answer is so difficult, yet so easy.

I bought heart stickers todayyaaee. (: I got three on my handphone, lol! and i gave the rest to weiyu. And i remember when she lends money from me like eg. $1.20 i’ll say no need 20 cents, and she’ll find means and way to give it back. And then we’ll fight and scream and all. Our class is crazy. (: they are all bonded and sweet. Well. except _____. Ohohoh. Today i was like in for a big surpirse. When the teacher was electing the class comittee ppl, the dance rap was actually yumeng la. then loads of people started asking if they can change, and when teacher say change to who, everyone was like, “BERNICE!!” seriously. i was totally shocked. i didnt know so MANY people loves me. (: hahaha.

life is so depressing. it’s like. you want to leave, but can’t. you want to run away, but can’t. so you stay and get shot.

i’m going to dieeee. ): secondary school life is tough.

someone, just shoot me.

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